Almost

I'm on a week long liquid fast at the moment, currently on day 2. Going good and I've lost 2kg since I started! I'm almost back down to my lowest weight! Oh my god, I have to get there.

Well my ABC is fucked to high heaven so I think I should stick to restricting. 200 cal a day I think. I always seem to fuck up if I don't have one set limit of cals, and if I fuck up once I keep fucking up because my good feeling of control is ruined. So, 200 cal only allowing extra if I have to eat out >.>

Damn...

Today I accidentally went over my calorie limit, I didn't realise it was a 100 day and I had more :(
So I'm fasting tomorrow which is ment to be a 200 day. Fasting is also good because I have to go out to a restaurant with my family the night after that. That day is meant to be a 300 day which I'm pretty sure no restuarant has anything under 300 cal (especially a Pizza Pasta place >.< ). So I fast tomorrow and the next day until dinner because there is no way they will have anything low cal enough.
Why does something always have to happen to ruin/almost ruin my plans?

Gah! My weight didn't go down anymore. It's the same as yesterday! Still bellow my calculations but it is so frustrating when your weight stays the same :(

Happy

I did calculations to figure out what weight I should be every day on the ABC diet and I'm so happy because I'm on day three of the diet but my weight is down to what it should be on the sixth day! Woop! maybe I can lose more than 25lb?

ABC diet

I NEED to control myself

Ana's Girl - I can't explain how I feel to know you care. I'm trying to stop cutting. Thank you so much. I love you.

Picking the scab off a deep cut really, really hurts, I don't recommend it.

Hormones right now are my most hated thing appart from food. Hormones make me eat, eat, eat, eat, eat, and then I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate and cry. For the past two weeks I've constantly feel like I would spontaneously burst into tears. I'm too afraid to weigh myself because I'm frightened of how high the number will be, though weighing myself sometimes helps me stay motivated...