2468 + Atkins Diet

2468 is going well even though it's only been a day and a half. I was going through the site I read about the 2468 diet on and found the Atkins Diet. This is what was on the site:
Atkins Diet

This plan is a low carbohydrate method. The avoidance of carbohydrates in your diet is structured to keep your body from adding weight. The method includes eating less than 20 grams of carbohydrates per day. The idea behind restricting carbohydrates is that it will send your body into ketosis after 24 to 48 hours.

Free Meats and Cheeses:

The following meats and cheeses have no carbohydrates. Using the Dr. Atkins Diet plan you may eat as much of the following items as you wish.



Meat Fish Fowl Seafood Eggs Cheese
Beef Trout Chicken Lobster Hard Boiled Cream Cheese
Ham Salomon Turkey Mussels Fried Swiss
Bacon Sole Duck Clams Poached Aged & Fresh
Lamb Tuna Goose Oysters Soft Boiled Cottage Cheese
Veal Flounder Cornish Hen Shrimp Scrambled Cheddar
Pork Sardines Quail Squid Deviled
Venison Herring Pheasant Crab



Not Bad Vegetables:

A serving of these salad vegetables has 10% or less of your daily carbohydrate limit. Therefore you can eat up to three cups of these without worry.



Alfalfa Sprouts Jicama
Arugula Lettuce
Bock Choy Mache
Celery Mushrooms
Chicory Olives
Chives Parsley
Cucumber Peppers
Endive Radicchio
Escarole Radishes
Fennel Sorrel



Other Vegetables:

These vegetables have more carbohydrates than the ones above. You'll want to limit your intake of these to about 1 cup per day.

Artichoke Hearts Kale
Asparagus Kohlrabi
Avocado Okra
Bamboo Shoots Onion
Bean Sprouts Pumpkin
Beet Greens Rhubarb
Broccoli Sauerkraut
Brussel Sprouts Scallions
Cabbage Snow Pea Pods
Cauliflower Spaghetti Squash
Celery Roots Spinach
Chard String Beans, etc.
Collard Greens Summer Squash
Dandelion Greens Tomato
Eggplant Turnips
Hearts of Palm Water Chestnuts
Leeks Zucchini



These foods are high in carbohydrates and should be avoided:

Alcohol Grains
Anything with flour Juice
Beer Non-Diet Soda
Breads Pasta
Candy Potato
Cereal Rice
Chips Sugars
Fruit



Sounds good doesn't it? I'm going to try and incorporate this into my 2468 diet. Sorry the foods may be a bit hard to read.

2 4 6 8

I am starting the 2 4 6 8 diet today. It sounds good because I don't like eating much anyway and with an actual calorie allowance I'm not as likely to eat too much. I found a site with some good low calorie foods I want to use for this diet, the link is: http://www.angelfire.com/me4/sumofallparts/Restriction%20Kitchen.htm
I hope this diet works. If not I think it's still good to do anyway.

Strawberry Gashes

Cutting is such a relief. My tears stop, my breathing evens, I relax, I can breath again. It's like a trance. If only people weren't so narrow minded they might get it.

I so pathetically had been gaining weight over the last month or so and I'm determined lo lose again. I want to be 48kg by my 18th birthday at the end of September. 12kg in 4 and a half months. Sounds doable. I hope. That will bring my total weight loss to 24kg. 53lb. That will be wonderful.

Think thin. When I lose, I win.

eh

Fuck it, I'm not eating.

Hate is my other half

I've gained so much I want to die, or burst out in uncontrolable tears at random moments. The holidays should die, stuffing fucking food down out throats till we burst. Its like I've been on a fucking continuous binge.
So, I've made up a meal plan that I have to stick to every day:

Breakfast
-fruit
OR
-porridge
OR
-high fibre cerial
-unsweetened coffee or tea

Lunch
-fruit
OR
-salad
OR
-vita-wheat crackers with lettus or something

Dinner
-salad
OR
-vegetables

Snacks
-fruit/veg
OR
-vita-wheat crackers

I have to be more strict on my veganism. No more eating foods that I know have animal products in them. Its not enough that that I cut out meat, cheese and milk, I have to read the ingredients on all food packets like I used to.

None of my clothes fit right, I went from a 14 down to and 8 (almost) and now I'm back to 10s and 12s. Fucking kill me. How did I ever find something that looked ok to wear with all this bulging fat? It has to go.

I want to go back to school because I can drown in my uniform shirt that is about 4 sizes too big and hides my fat rolls, though I don't like the way it drapes from my boobs, makes me look like one of those old ladies with massive boobs and ungly t-shirts.
Anyhoo, the other thing that is good about school is that food isn't taunting me from the cupboard. I never bring money to school so I can't buy it and most of my friends food is not vegan friendly.

I haven't posted in so long because I have been ashamed of myself. Lets hope I can change that.

Can I stay below 55? No! Wondderful! Just fucking great.

Finally, finally, finally bellow 55. That took so fucking long. I saw 54.7 on the scales and felt my heart flip. Now that I've got bellow I hope it will be easier to keep losing.

I've found recently that making soup for dinner is good because when no one is looking I can go into the kitchen and while I pretend to rinse the bowl I can pour the soup down the sink and people think I ate it.

I know I always went on about how I wanted my anti-depressants to work but I haven't taken them for three days and I feel better than I do when I take them. It's really strange. I have been so depressed for so long that when I take my zoloft and feel less depressed I feel wrong. I've been depressed for so long that that is the only way I know how to feel. If I don't feel depressed I don't feel like me. I would rather be me than a fake, chemically happy me. Though I haven't yet told my mother that I've stopped taking my pills, I've just been hiding them.

I finished reading a book the other day called 'Killing Aurora'. It's about a 14 year old girl who develops anorexia. The book was good though really strange. I liked it until it came to the end. It made me cry. Aurora recovered and turned into a fat goth. I have nothing against being goth because that would make me somewhat of a hypocrite. It was the fact that she became fat. I have no idea how she would be able to live with herself for doing that to her body, drowning herself in fat. I don't personally know any former anorexics but I know I wouldn't be able to survive if I recovered and became fat (though I don't have anorexia, I think I have EDNOS though it hasn't been diagnosed, I know my eating habits obviously aren't like other peoples).

I think the herbal diet pills I've been taking are working because I've sadly been slacking off on my exercise because its been raining almost constantly. I had been stuck on 55kg for so long while I was doing exercise and now that I've been taking these herbal pills and not actually doing much exercise, I've managed to get bellow 55. I've noticed no side effects from the pills what so ever which is wonderful. These seem to work for me so I would recomend Fusion Weight Loss pills to anyone who wants them if you can find them.

Think thin and starve on.